RLC numbers growing

ok having a husband that plays online video games allows me to see a very dynamic interactive social network that i would otherwise never actually be amazed with. But i am amazed...so i have dabbled before with second life, warcraft, starwars, etc. but this [adult content] RED LIGHT CENTER is a bit modified...and yes, it's all very silly, but this is an example of the clear need for people to connect on so many differnt levels [via interacive virtual worlds].

---watermelon is better in a video game?...until it is

heavy eyes

sooooo sleepy, but i feel like a child that wants to very badly finish watching the end of the horror movie. Slouching on the couch as my feet barely make the edge of the cushion. The brown synthetic cushions that have some wierd wagon wheel painted on them.
And we all know how the movie ends...but we dont, cause we woke up as our caretaker carried us away and all we saw were our reflections in grey.

---watermelon dreams

no! not gonna!...pout

a mean person of sorts is yanking me by my legs as i grasp for the bed posts...it's so painful.

everything but unconditional

love...is a funny thing. its rare but not. it's only rare in the sense that two people have to do it equally towards eachother in equal amounts at the same time...at almost exactly the same time...if one person misses it, the love diminishes later in the other.. if one loves more, the other must love twice as much later on...love is like an exponential equation...plunders quickly or flourishes quickly...love, is a rare thing. to love more than once is a gift, a bitter sweet gift.

oppurtunity costs!

Last sunday we ventured out to the New York Renessaince Faire. Our first "nice" train ride was a highlight. From the train to the faire, google said, was 1.3 miles, but we walked a total of 1o miles round trip. So, to make the best of the walk back we drank alot beer and ate alot meat...BURP! and in a drunken state we walked back along the tracks and burst into song:
"lean on me, when you're not strong...."

p.s. the one in texas is better

fucking contradiction

this is where my wariness takes a part in what i post...i have nothing honest or fun or good to post so i will put up an image to deter from Me.

lastnight

random bathroom + random band + random bar = deterministic blah

"Toxic" played on the ukulele

lips + coat + ukulele...renders toxic

feliz cumpleanos

happy birthday to my sweet, The Coolest Cat Todd.

it's not like me...

but i like me
feeling good about reading The Prince by Machiavelli, which my serbian friend who is VERY politically driven said was a "fun read". But not only that, I was feeling way more out of my skin when i was tempted to, and did read Sun-tzu's The Art of War.
i mean these are widely read books but they are so not what i would usually read.
so, as of recent, i have felt like waging war, gaining power, futhermore, retaining it. so dont mess with me man, i'm feeling well-rounded and im texan.

---mmmm watermelon

it just, you know, happened

"let me be your whore!"
"what?!?!"
"please, let me be your whore?!"
"you are!!!"
holy shit, when did that happen

apples and oranges

fuck!
so similar yet so different!
there should be a hybrid
disappointing

the heart sinks, it plunders

the gypsy danced for her king
and he threw her coins
of lust, of trust, of honesty, and of friendship
she moved with pure commitment
he viewed her with the shear admiration

one day she played the flute
he paid no wage
she was not the same
she deceived him

current sound

cant ever get enough of her voice...introduced through the dresden dolls after opening for NIN, truely sexy duo...but then her solo is heavenly...ms. amanda palmer..

i am infatuated...

singing

in our home we sing alot...you know, the the type of songs you make up about eachother and the simplest of daily routines, and other songs that might pop into our head..
today, it's raining, and i started to sing "this little light of mine".
after a chorus or two, todd starts to sing with me and then says "wow, you came up with a really good song...really cute. i like that one." he says.
to my amazement, after playing it for him, he'd never heard the song...or claims not to recall it if he had heard it at some point or another.
i'm still a bit amazed...but he has been known to fib for his amusement, so skeptisism lingers.

there you have it

There was one I met upon the road
Who looked at me with kind eyes.
He said, "Show me of your wares."
And this I did, Holding forth one.
He said, "It is a sin."
Then held I forth another;
He said, "It is a sin."
Then held I forth another;
He said, "It is a sin."
And so to the end;
Always he said, "It is a sin."
And, finally, I cried out,
"But I have none other."
Then did he look at me
With kinder eyes.
"Poor soul!" he said.

AND

A man said to the universe:
“Sir, I exist!”
“However,” replied the universe,
“The fact has not created in me
A sense of obligation.”

----stephen crane

so it begins, for a short while

it always happens a few weeks before going back to school...the hurry-summer-is-about-to-be-over resolution.
1. lose 10 lbs
2. read a good book
3. do something with that 4-yr old canvas
4. deep clean apartment again
5. organize ALL pics into one database
6. go to the park and sit
now these came from the list previously called the i-have-a whole-summer-off resolution.

let the su--un shi---ine....

so i am starting to figure out how new yorkers afford to live here...there are a ton of cool things to do around the city that are free (hence the wild style celebration last week)... so thursday we treated ourselves to an outdoor showing of Hair at the Brooklyn Bridge Park.

so it took us a year to figure it out and we forgot the blanket. baby steps.

-we ate watermelon