its golden

so they say...

i stand at the bank of the fall
as my pit of gold awaits me
cradled to my shape, molded to my skin
dulled to milky yellow, honing my mood
flashing its yellow's, glimpsing its sheen
its lure full of deceitful promise

i listen for a shift, a smooth slide
my toes curl the edge of stone
listening... for my bones to crack

snippets

100% natural
sorta like a dream
sunshine and blueberry yogurt
sweaty necks and beating hearts

its what makes sundays great...
the nothings
the longings
the so very somethings.

to reminscing all times before now.

Guilt

It Grinds my essence to a dust

Clentching my stomache to no breath

Its bitter stentch lingers

Relentless,,

it finds its way to empty thoughts

Filling every

Every

Every

Word and sound that surrounds me.

So painful



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nyc update:

I find it neccessary to give these. It was afterall, the peculiar lonliness this city brings that introduced this new way of expression; this blogging and sharing.

I am wary of counting my blessings, as if thanking someone or something justifies my deserving them. but i can begin to count the certain people that have made nyc my most desirable home. They are the few and the very many --- THAT is the beauty of this place --- an appreciation for finding the niches.

drunken dreams?

6am:
he's snoring, drunk, and the smell of beer lingers as i crawl up the loft.
i say out loud "my snory thing".
He wakes and asks "who smokes more?"
i crawl in beside him
"WHO smokes more?" he asks again
"WHAT?, i dunno"
with his index, i get a poke on my forehead
a drowsy childlike smile "you lose...susy loses"


he definately lost me on that one :)

lady in spain

with my bent knee to the butchers block
over my head it surrounds me
flashing lights and thumbing keys
twinkle lights and soaring sounds
i get taken away
simply and swiftly
gracefully and brutally
i get taken.

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