i started sharing my thought online four years ago. first it was a "journal" then the blog. it was simply a way to write again. I'd stopped writing in my paper journals and thought it might be easier via blog/typing. Four years ago today i wrote this via Journal Home:
12/6/2006 - all down hill
well finished the most relevant final of the semester....STUDIO JURY.
this is where students present work to a panel of architects and they tell what you did right/wrong.
so after not sleeping for three nights, i present, and a big shot architect tells me my design represented mush. mush in the sense that i could not make a desicion on what i wantd my architecture to be. the other two jurors liked my desicions but said the project lacked conviction. so this was not a good jury, to say the least. very bad actually.
the problem: i was too aware of what other students were doing all semester and not allowing myslef to become my own architect. i am talented, i was 1/15 people accepted to this institute, so why the hell did i sell myself short?
common of me to do this, but usually i analyze and repair, so next semester i will enter with conviction!
nice to know in two semsters i will have a masters, i would have never thought.
