ALANaISsance!!!

Easter marks the resurrection of jesus christ.

This year the guest of honor is yours truly.
The susana resurrection.
The susana renaissance.

Good things will happen. as they have always have happened. Gloriously.

"whats your song?" they ask

why not a whole record.. Keane-Strangeland .  loss, love, hope, and more hope.

todo azul

"todo azul" translates to "everything blue" which translates that all things are good and calm. in spanish anyway.
this morning, i cant really put my finger on what i want to say, but the words repeat in my head. maybe im making a wish upon the brisk air, praying to the freedom tower.

todo azul. todo azul. todo azul.

lame

another night.

waiting on that boy to call. 

water to that flame.
smother it

go to sleep and dream

cant

clean

bathe

tire the fuck out. 

still waiting

the norm. 

the waiting.
tiring

calm before the storm

without the perfect answer to why
the tethered rope
turning and twisting
barely holding on.
give me a fucking sign
a fucking sign.
thats all i want.