brain overlaid : UPDATE

Hmm.. OK, so maybe the list worked a little. Let's see


:) 80%  wake up early
:) 50%  get to work early
:(  0% work out 3 times a week
:)  90% cook 18 out of my 21 meals
:) 50%begin taking my ARE exams to actually be an architect
:( 0% get a new job - i may have decided against this :)
0% get a new apartment : I may have decided to omit this from my list :)
:) 100% visit my family in houston
:( 0% go to the social security office to get my maiden name back
:( 0% go the DMV office to get my maiden name back
:( 0%  finish my website

5 sad faces, 5 happy faces.. Not too bad. Let's change that in the next few months :)

You are moving on...

That's what everyone says.. move on. you're moving on. But I have to admit I'm almost in the same place i was a year ago. A little less despair. A little less crazed, but just as heart-broken as I was the day he left, the day he moved in with someone else, the day I found out he would be the father of someone else's baby.

I would love to move on, but the only place I seem to be moving towards is the fact that i still love him.

It will pass as all things do I guess. I hope, cause this sucks.